End of another day..just in search for the start of a new story.It is eluding me for so long now.
Just wrote these 4 lines
You gave me reasons that were special
It turned out to be special,only for me though
You gave me reasons,am one among many
Niether I understood nor were you aware you gave it
I tried to call it a poem...but realized it's not.
Who would have made a better poem out of this topic?...I am lost in thoughts.I just went out of the place and saw many familiar faces near facebook.
Who?...No one in this modern world?...or a few?
Friendship in IT world is the third form of acting after drama and cinema.
Here its 'survival of the fittest'.Darwin,I misunderstood or never understood(You) till the time I reached here.
After coffee and tea,the item which is served most here is lie[Yes,ofcourse they are as harmless as coffee and tea]..but sometimes you wonder why they give us at lunch time?...:P
I can't bear high temperature,honesty and evaluations now.
I sweat a lot for the first and last and for the second I am just guessing I won't be able to because am not facing it.Bottom line is "Its too rare even to make a conclusion that its good or bad".
Towards the end of a stupid post...No!Nothing can be stupid..everything can have a a a meaning that can make you happy atleast once during its existence.
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
To My Friend...
I tried to see friendship in all your gestures
I loved you to become my friend
But now I want you to hate me
Not because I don wanna be friends with you
But because of the fear of missing you when I leave
I remember all those occasions when you bored me with your actions
But I never hated,never ever hated you
Rather I love to look back at those memories When I leave now
And I will always love to
Who told friendship is mutual
when we feel and the other person pretends to feel also
It can give the pleasure of togetherness and pain of departure
Is it more painful this way,that's the only question I have
I tried to define you,but I ended up defining friendship
But when I finished it,I wondered I saw you Infront of me.
I think I will tell you good-bye long before our farewell day
So that I can casually say it on that day
Of course when we say it without any meaning,its not painful.
P.S:On my way back today....I was thinking of gifting something really precious to my friend...Couldnt get anything better..I dedicate this post for one of my best friends.....
I loved you to become my friend
But now I want you to hate me
Not because I don wanna be friends with you
But because of the fear of missing you when I leave
I remember all those occasions when you bored me with your actions
But I never hated,never ever hated you
Rather I love to look back at those memories When I leave now
And I will always love to
Who told friendship is mutual
when we feel and the other person pretends to feel also
It can give the pleasure of togetherness and pain of departure
Is it more painful this way,that's the only question I have
I tried to define you,but I ended up defining friendship
But when I finished it,I wondered I saw you Infront of me.
I think I will tell you good-bye long before our farewell day
So that I can casually say it on that day
Of course when we say it without any meaning,its not painful.
P.S:On my way back today....I was thinking of gifting something really precious to my friend...Couldnt get anything better..I dedicate this post for one of my best friends.....
Monday, March 15, 2010
A Proud Mom and Son
She was a very strong woman.Her husband died 25 years back in a war,Fighting for India.He left behind his memories and their son with her.She was not sad but proud that her husband sacrificed his life for the good of the country.
He was only 5 when his father died.Then onwards,she was his father and mother.She wanted him to be a proud soldier of India following his father's footsteps."I will more medals than him".He used to tell her when he was in 5th standard .She would become so proud that,it would bring the memory of her brave husband that used to fell down as tears.
He Joined Army after his graduation.She had become old by then.She was alone in that big house.But still she took the courage from the pride that her son is fighting for the country,protecting its citizens.
But world turned upside down on that day when she heard that news.Her son is captured for a fake encounter and killing 5 people.He was caught along with 5 other people.Circumstantial evidence was strong enough to make even the mother believe it.It was a drama scripted by his supervisor who got jealous by his remarkable performance.In fact he had some enemity with his father also--That too played its part.But nobody knows it except those 6 people who were caught.Supervisor was experienced enough to create evidences without any loopholes.
She was looking at those medals all through the day."I will get more medals than him".That 10 year old boy is no more in the frame.But why did he do it?.They say it was for money with evidence.
Next night,they talked over the phone.He was unstable emotionally and he didn't know what to say to convince her mother.She was strong and firm in her words and was speaking as though delivering a final verdict to the murder convict.
She died the very next day out of mental stigma.Coincidentially or what,verict came the very same day.
Our principle of Judiciary,We should not punish a single Innoscent person even if we leave alone 1000 criminals,once again won the battle.He was acquitted.
After the verdict he came to see his mother for the last time.His emotion was not sadness but he was feeling guilty even though he was acquitted.He couldn't convince his mother of his Innoscence before she left the world.
He saw those medals once gain. "I will get more medals than him"..He wanted to say it loudly.He looked at his father's picture,he might have left with the world with the satisfaction that his son would do the Job for him.Then he looked at his mother's body and she?.She left the world seeing his son..?.
Sona,his uncle's daughter came the next day only.She went to meet him at his house.She was not sure how to face him.
He was lying on the floor and when she ran to him she could see blood dripping down from the left side of his head.It was all over the room.
"He is dead Long Back"..
There was a note left behind which said "mom,Defnitely I will win more medals when you are there to see"
He was only 5 when his father died.Then onwards,she was his father and mother.She wanted him to be a proud soldier of India following his father's footsteps."I will more medals than him".He used to tell her when he was in 5th standard .She would become so proud that,it would bring the memory of her brave husband that used to fell down as tears.
He Joined Army after his graduation.She had become old by then.She was alone in that big house.But still she took the courage from the pride that her son is fighting for the country,protecting its citizens.
But world turned upside down on that day when she heard that news.Her son is captured for a fake encounter and killing 5 people.He was caught along with 5 other people.Circumstantial evidence was strong enough to make even the mother believe it.It was a drama scripted by his supervisor who got jealous by his remarkable performance.In fact he had some enemity with his father also--That too played its part.But nobody knows it except those 6 people who were caught.Supervisor was experienced enough to create evidences without any loopholes.
She was looking at those medals all through the day."I will get more medals than him".That 10 year old boy is no more in the frame.But why did he do it?.They say it was for money with evidence.
Next night,they talked over the phone.He was unstable emotionally and he didn't know what to say to convince her mother.She was strong and firm in her words and was speaking as though delivering a final verdict to the murder convict.
She died the very next day out of mental stigma.Coincidentially or what,verict came the very same day.
Our principle of Judiciary,We should not punish a single Innoscent person even if we leave alone 1000 criminals,once again won the battle.He was acquitted.
After the verdict he came to see his mother for the last time.His emotion was not sadness but he was feeling guilty even though he was acquitted.He couldn't convince his mother of his Innoscence before she left the world.
He saw those medals once gain. "I will get more medals than him"..He wanted to say it loudly.He looked at his father's picture,he might have left with the world with the satisfaction that his son would do the Job for him.Then he looked at his mother's body and she?.She left the world seeing his son..?.
Sona,his uncle's daughter came the next day only.She went to meet him at his house.She was not sure how to face him.
He was lying on the floor and when she ran to him she could see blood dripping down from the left side of his head.It was all over the room.
"He is dead Long Back"..
There was a note left behind which said "mom,Defnitely I will win more medals when you are there to see"
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Late to Bed....Late to Rise!!!
Today I Have to wake up @ 9 am.Yeah I know its early,but can' help it.I have to be in office at 11 .My friend is already bathing.Their office timing is from 10.30.Not much difference .Ha ha! everyone enjoys life.2 of our friends leave home by 7.30.Ho!That reminds me of yesterday's hard work.We prepared the lunch and breakfast by 3 am and in fridge by 3.30.But we enjoyed it,infact we are enjoying it.During my college days also I used to sleep at 3 and can't sleep till then.The chit chat and cooking till 3 is really funny and the best part is you can go to bed with no fear of alarm with everything in place even the ironed dresses.I reach office by 11.30.
She might have reached by 11.What should be our plan today?hmmm lunch outside.I pinged on messenger. "Lunch outside?" She pinged back "You didn't bring tiffin today?". I replied "Who cares?".Lets go out.Some of you might have raised eyebrows.Who is she?.I wont tell you atleast now."So whats the plan after office?We will go to beach or film.Today some new movie is released."She was looking like she liked both.We are good friends.I can read even her slightest gestures.So we went to beach.Cool breeze was blowing.Nice evening!All evenings are nice ever since She is with me.I brought a red rose and gave it to her.Yeah it was so casual as my words.I don't know the exact number of roses I have given her but I always the remember the first time when I gave her.My hands were shivering.One or two petals fell down I guess.Everytime I smile thinking of that and everytime she gives a romantic smile in return .I feel like she gives 100 roses everytime.
Life is not hectic.I don't know why people always love those things which we can't get even if that is as weird a term as 'hectic'.Yeah truly I would love to understand that term
My day starts at 7 when I look at Clock and see the time and go back to sleep again.Then in office ,longing for lunch with her.Then Lunch with her.Again wait for the evening.Together we will wait for the auto rickshaw to beach.Lovely evening with only that rose in between two of us.After that Ice cream.I am not sure whether I enjoyed my college life this much.
Sometimes she scolds me as if I am a kid.Sometimes I advice her as a father.Or sometimes we mimick each other like friends.We argue each other like a sister and brother.But among all these things the sure thing is that red rose.That will happen before we catch the auto to our home.
We have to reach home by 8.By that time the other two friends might have come back after tution.Yeah,We have 2 kids :one is in sixth and one in 1st.After preparing and eating dinner.Its time to prepare everything for tomorrow.Seemingly hectic but funny work till 3 after finishing the movie.
So its all set for tomorrow,Everything is in place.No alarms,No Worries.I will wake up @ 9 and she,I think 8.30 !!!:P..Anyways she is late ,she reaches by 11 only.
She might have reached by 11.What should be our plan today?hmmm lunch outside.I pinged on messenger. "Lunch outside?" She pinged back "You didn't bring tiffin today?". I replied "Who cares?".Lets go out.Some of you might have raised eyebrows.Who is she?.I wont tell you atleast now."So whats the plan after office?We will go to beach or film.Today some new movie is released."She was looking like she liked both.We are good friends.I can read even her slightest gestures.So we went to beach.Cool breeze was blowing.Nice evening!All evenings are nice ever since She is with me.I brought a red rose and gave it to her.Yeah it was so casual as my words.I don't know the exact number of roses I have given her but I always the remember the first time when I gave her.My hands were shivering.One or two petals fell down I guess.Everytime I smile thinking of that and everytime she gives a romantic smile in return .I feel like she gives 100 roses everytime.
Life is not hectic.I don't know why people always love those things which we can't get even if that is as weird a term as 'hectic'.Yeah truly I would love to understand that term
My day starts at 7 when I look at Clock and see the time and go back to sleep again.Then in office ,longing for lunch with her.Then Lunch with her.Again wait for the evening.Together we will wait for the auto rickshaw to beach.Lovely evening with only that rose in between two of us.After that Ice cream.I am not sure whether I enjoyed my college life this much.
Sometimes she scolds me as if I am a kid.Sometimes I advice her as a father.Or sometimes we mimick each other like friends.We argue each other like a sister and brother.But among all these things the sure thing is that red rose.That will happen before we catch the auto to our home.
We have to reach home by 8.By that time the other two friends might have come back after tution.Yeah,We have 2 kids :one is in sixth and one in 1st.After preparing and eating dinner.Its time to prepare everything for tomorrow.Seemingly hectic but funny work till 3 after finishing the movie.
So its all set for tomorrow,Everything is in place.No alarms,No Worries.I will wake up @ 9 and she,I think 8.30 !!!:P..Anyways she is late ,she reaches by 11 only.
Friday, January 1, 2010
Emotions Beyond Obvious
"1.If someone is angry with a person,he won't feel looking at the person and sound of speech will be Descending.
2.If he is frustrated and not in a good mood,he will defnitely look at the face but the usual flare will be missing.
3.If he is in a good mood and in good terms with that person,thats the ideal condition of resonance between 2 people resulting in the tranfer of positive energy from and to."
Another Boring class of psychology from prof.Shinde.He will tell these 3 points atleast 10 times in each class.Oops!We can't endure!Sumit and Dhanyal were yawning as usual.But they enjoy being together,be it for getting bored or for yawning or any activity in college.Everybody looked them with admiration;great friends.They were not toppers but defnitely not on the bottom also.
In any field you can memorize and easily score marks and in psychology also.But shinde was adamant and he didn't care about the marks if he/she passed the exam.Shinde was so far-sighted that he even arranged for sessions with depressed people for his students.Sumit and Dhanyal always outperformed others in these sessions and won the admiration of many people.They were not good in mugging up and vomiting but in understanding and applying.
But shinde hated(atleast infront of his students) the duo because they were always sitting uninterestingly in his class.He told them to get out many times.But inside,Shinde always admired them for their ability to apply what they learnt.
There was nothing between them that went unshared.They always believed friendship is something that is beyond differences.Differences only add to the intensity of it.Living above the differences is possible only through understanding.Understanding each other's differences-and not being ideal people-is the basis of all friendships.
As a part of a case study which was going to last till the end of course all were told to form a group of 3.If Shinde gets impressed winning team will get a chance to fly Switzerland to do Research.A girl named Arathy also joined the group of Sumit and Dhanyal.Because of their varied characters,Sumit and Arathy got close very soon.But sumit always kept his friendship with Dhanyal alive.Gossips started flying about Sumit and Arathy.
After coming back from one vacation,Sumit found Dhanyal answering to his questions by not looking into his face and in a descending tone.Sumit got very upset.He was so involved with Dhanyal that even his slightest indifference was a disaster for him.He couldn't concentrate on his studies and even after repeated coercion Dhanyal was not saying anything.That night when he was on bed for another sleepless night immediatly shinde's sound came from somewhere
"If someone is angry with a person,he won't feel looking at the person and sound of speech will be Descending."
He jumped up from his bed to see if shinde was there but that was a dream.
For the first time,I saw something that has already happened in my life as a dream
Oh God!Dhanyal is angry with me.But why?
But one day Sumit Overheard 2 students
"Hey,you know I can predict 2 things that are going to happen at the end of this course.Ram(Topper) and his team will fly to Switzerland and Sumit and Arathy will marry"
Sumit was so startled to hear the latter sentence but former sentence was obvious for him also.Because he knows how much Arathy loves Dhanyal and waiting to know the mind of Dhanyal.Sumit didn't even use his brain to realise Dhanyal's indifference and after that intial shock gave way to happiness.Yes,Dhanyal loves Arathy.Sumit turned out to be the happiest person on earth.
It seemed like sumit wanted none other than Dhanyal to be present on the Earth that time.He wanted to see him before the next second.
"Love can heal even the wounds in friendship.Come on Dhans,You only told me out of the things which can only be felt on this earth,Greatest ones are 'Emotions Beyond obvious'.I can't believe the same person couldn't understand my feelings of friendship for you and her feelings of love for you.And you thought of even parting with me."
Deviation in their wavelengths were closing to zero with each word from Sumit and at resonance they couldn't resist themselves from hugging each other.
"If he is in a good mood and in good terms with that person,thats the ideal condition of resonance between 2 people resulting in the tranfer of positive energy from and to."
Again shinde's voice.Sumit forgot to make sure its not a dream.
He was standing in a hugging posture with closed eyes.He opened his eyes to realise that he was not in a Dream."Shinde is there,dude".Then Dhanyal had to make sure that its not a dream(Shinde!!!!).Yeah Its not a Dream.Shinde,Arathy and all are there.
They were so happy to see the duo reunited.
Everybody was unsure why shinde came.
"Yes,I know.You are wondering why did I come?You all felt Sumit was in love with Arathy.I won't blame you.Because thats the most obvious relation that can develop between a boy and girl.But as Psychology students you should understand emotions beyond obvious.I know you all will be expecting me to announce Ram and team as winners to go abroad.The most obvious relation that can develop between a teacher and indisciplined student is that of hatred,right?I showed that obvious emotion also,atleast infront of others."
With a smile Shinde continued.
"I was brilliant enough to hide my emotions beyond obvious.Dhanyal was not brilliant enough to understand the same from Sumit even though Sumit always tried to show it to Dhanyal because he is Sumit's best Friend.Now Sumit and team can leave India next month and all my best wishes.Ram,you are good,but marks are not a criterea at all for me.Try to emulate Ram and his team,all of you"
Somebody from crowd asked Ram "Hey,your packaging was over,right?"
"If he is frustrated and not in a good mood,he will defnitely look at the face but the usual flare will be missing."
Shinde's voice!!.Believe me this time it's not a dream .Its not shinde also.
May be somebody mimicked Shinde..:)
As an Ending note:No prize for Guessing Ram's Reaction to 'somebody from crowd'.
2.If he is frustrated and not in a good mood,he will defnitely look at the face but the usual flare will be missing.
3.If he is in a good mood and in good terms with that person,thats the ideal condition of resonance between 2 people resulting in the tranfer of positive energy from and to."
Another Boring class of psychology from prof.Shinde.He will tell these 3 points atleast 10 times in each class.Oops!We can't endure!Sumit and Dhanyal were yawning as usual.But they enjoy being together,be it for getting bored or for yawning or any activity in college.Everybody looked them with admiration;great friends.They were not toppers but defnitely not on the bottom also.
In any field you can memorize and easily score marks and in psychology also.But shinde was adamant and he didn't care about the marks if he/she passed the exam.Shinde was so far-sighted that he even arranged for sessions with depressed people for his students.Sumit and Dhanyal always outperformed others in these sessions and won the admiration of many people.They were not good in mugging up and vomiting but in understanding and applying.
But shinde hated(atleast infront of his students) the duo because they were always sitting uninterestingly in his class.He told them to get out many times.But inside,Shinde always admired them for their ability to apply what they learnt.
There was nothing between them that went unshared.They always believed friendship is something that is beyond differences.Differences only add to the intensity of it.Living above the differences is possible only through understanding.Understanding each other's differences-and not being ideal people-is the basis of all friendships.
As a part of a case study which was going to last till the end of course all were told to form a group of 3.If Shinde gets impressed winning team will get a chance to fly Switzerland to do Research.A girl named Arathy also joined the group of Sumit and Dhanyal.Because of their varied characters,Sumit and Arathy got close very soon.But sumit always kept his friendship with Dhanyal alive.Gossips started flying about Sumit and Arathy.
After coming back from one vacation,Sumit found Dhanyal answering to his questions by not looking into his face and in a descending tone.Sumit got very upset.He was so involved with Dhanyal that even his slightest indifference was a disaster for him.He couldn't concentrate on his studies and even after repeated coercion Dhanyal was not saying anything.That night when he was on bed for another sleepless night immediatly shinde's sound came from somewhere
"If someone is angry with a person,he won't feel looking at the person and sound of speech will be Descending."
He jumped up from his bed to see if shinde was there but that was a dream.
For the first time,I saw something that has already happened in my life as a dream
Oh God!Dhanyal is angry with me.But why?
But one day Sumit Overheard 2 students
"Hey,you know I can predict 2 things that are going to happen at the end of this course.Ram(Topper) and his team will fly to Switzerland and Sumit and Arathy will marry"
Sumit was so startled to hear the latter sentence but former sentence was obvious for him also.Because he knows how much Arathy loves Dhanyal and waiting to know the mind of Dhanyal.Sumit didn't even use his brain to realise Dhanyal's indifference and after that intial shock gave way to happiness.Yes,Dhanyal loves Arathy.Sumit turned out to be the happiest person on earth.
It seemed like sumit wanted none other than Dhanyal to be present on the Earth that time.He wanted to see him before the next second.
"Love can heal even the wounds in friendship.Come on Dhans,You only told me out of the things which can only be felt on this earth,Greatest ones are 'Emotions Beyond obvious'.I can't believe the same person couldn't understand my feelings of friendship for you and her feelings of love for you.And you thought of even parting with me."
Deviation in their wavelengths were closing to zero with each word from Sumit and at resonance they couldn't resist themselves from hugging each other.
"If he is in a good mood and in good terms with that person,thats the ideal condition of resonance between 2 people resulting in the tranfer of positive energy from and to."
Again shinde's voice.Sumit forgot to make sure its not a dream.
He was standing in a hugging posture with closed eyes.He opened his eyes to realise that he was not in a Dream."Shinde is there,dude".Then Dhanyal had to make sure that its not a dream(Shinde!!!!).Yeah Its not a Dream.Shinde,Arathy and all are there.
They were so happy to see the duo reunited.
Everybody was unsure why shinde came.
"Yes,I know.You are wondering why did I come?You all felt Sumit was in love with Arathy.I won't blame you.Because thats the most obvious relation that can develop between a boy and girl.But as Psychology students you should understand emotions beyond obvious.I know you all will be expecting me to announce Ram and team as winners to go abroad.The most obvious relation that can develop between a teacher and indisciplined student is that of hatred,right?I showed that obvious emotion also,atleast infront of others."
With a smile Shinde continued.
"I was brilliant enough to hide my emotions beyond obvious.Dhanyal was not brilliant enough to understand the same from Sumit even though Sumit always tried to show it to Dhanyal because he is Sumit's best Friend.Now Sumit and team can leave India next month and all my best wishes.Ram,you are good,but marks are not a criterea at all for me.Try to emulate Ram and his team,all of you"
Somebody from crowd asked Ram "Hey,your packaging was over,right?"
"If he is frustrated and not in a good mood,he will defnitely look at the face but the usual flare will be missing."
Shinde's voice!!.Believe me this time it's not a dream .Its not shinde also.
May be somebody mimicked Shinde..:)
As an Ending note:No prize for Guessing Ram's Reaction to 'somebody from crowd'.
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